Why Awaken? When it Doesn’t Feel Good.

How does one Awaken spiritually when it Does Not Feel Good? When I had my full psychic awakening in the early 1990’s, the world you and I live in was a very different place. Can you take just a moment to think back on where you were in your own thinking at that time? Were you even born then? Do you remember if you even thought about meditation, past lives or even knew what an aura was? I certainly did not and in fact, my own education as a nurse taught me that what I really needed to do was check myself into a mental hospital. My oh my how times have changed in 25 short years! I remember teaching a class and asking the group how many people believed in past lives? Out of 20 students only 1 person raised their hand. I even had students threaten to walk out of the class if I brought up the subject of past lives and if I was teaching them how to do a past life reading for someone else, they refused, stating it was against their religion. So yes, we as a society as grown in enormous ways but we still have much further to grow in a very short time.

Twenty years ago, I remember reading books on this time of the great awakening and hearing words like, joy, bliss, the Celestine Prophecy and Shambhala a Tibetan spiritual kingdom that would be revealed in the new earth. It was beyond what most of us could even imagine but we certainly hung onto that as an inspiration to just keep going. When the vibrational frequency rises we were going to be happier, healthier, more awakened and all be brothers and sisters in unity love. What no one seemed to write about was just how dark those buried places inside of us and in the world could be when the light was shined on it. The only person that seemed to write about it was Debbie Ford, who wrote the Dark Side of the Light Chasers. In her history she was a heroin addict who went through recovery more times than she could count. She compared herself to those seeking the light and only felt her own darkness. It was in her ability to heal her darkness that she was finally able to find her own light and her own recovery from the addiction that had a death grip on her. Order, The Dark Side of the Light Chasers.

Teaching all over the world led me into incredible places where I had the ability to meet incredible teachers. In my own mind, I measured myself against these high-level meditators by my own inadequacies when it came to my own insecurities, doubts, and negative self-talk. I knew that I was being strongly spiritually called to help others remember they are spiritual beings having a human experience. Compelled every day, to share with you, the beautiful light you are and yet felt that I fell short in my humanness to override the ego when I imagined how Jesus, Buddha or the Dalai Lama managed it all. I was fortunate to have a great teacher, Mary Ellen Flora, who taught us to do readings on the great teachers lives, click here to read more about her. We were able to see they too were humans who struggled with the same inside battles when bringing forth ascended messages. In all of my travels, I have been gifted to meet many ascended teachers and when it comes to daily life, they all share their daily diligence at keeping their own heads above water. So I share with you that no one person on this earth holds the ancient secret to enlightenment. As long as they are in a human body, they too will struggle with the duality of being human.

What can you and I learn from those humans on earth that are living in an ascended consciousness? We are learning the dualities of being human are set up for the purpose of growing in our ability to manage the human condition. Spirit shares with me that we are already enlightened in the spiritual realm. We choose to come to earth, come to this 3rd dimensional realms for the purpose of taking our enlightenment to another level. Your human body feels extremes in aches, pains, and illness. Your emotions can express, anger, rage, hatred, at low points and joy, bliss, and extreme happiness at the high points. Your mind can take off with extreme analysis, overthinking, worry and inability to hold a focus at its low points and yet, a genius, a brilliance, a mental driven focus that can override the biggest problems at our highest points of mental functioning. Your spirits job in this 3rd dimensional world is to learn to maintain physical, emotional, and mental stability in the midst of chaos and drama. In some ways it is like a psychic boot camp for the soul. Imagine climbing onto the back of a beautiful spirited black stallion and you have very little riding experience. This spirited stallion takes off riding the winds of mountains and valleys as you struggle to remain on its back. Or the stallion running through hurricanes, tornadoes, earthquakes, and floods, all the while you are attempting to hang on for dear life. With each ride you gain skill and ability that strengthens you for the next adventure. Working with your humanness is the same way. The more you can ride the waves of life’s ups and downs the greater your skill level becomes and the easier it is with each progressive human riding lesson. Read my blog on Dismantling Crises and Chaos.

Why does it not feel good at times during our awakening process? As the frequency on the earth ascends why does it feel like we are descending? Do you find yourself wondering if all of this is just plain bullshit and nothing is ever going to change? Imagine a newborn in the womb, snuggled in, when the contractions begin, the squeezing, the bone collapsing contortions as the infant squeezes through a small opening before arriving into an expanded world of a mother and fathers outpouring of love. We are in a process where more of our spirit is birthing into our physical body. Most of humanity functions on a daily basis floating way above the body and in some cases even hundreds of feet above the body. As the frequency of the earth increases, the frequency of your human body increases, spiritualizing your body to birth your spirit into it. Up until that point of birthing inwards, the old human patterns of existence must be shed. Those patterns do not feel good. Letting go can feel frightening, uncertain, vulnerable and out of control. This does not feel very good, but what awaits you on the other side is a greater expansiveness for your spirit to birth inwards.

Choosing to “Tap In” rather than “Tap Out” is the name of the spiritual game right now. Making those choices to do just a little better each day in ascending towards higher ways of being, believing, action and deeds will assist you to ride a little further on the back of your stallion of a body, a little further each time. Faith is the key right now. I have a magnet on my refrigerator that says, “Feed your Faith and your FEARS will starve to death!” When ever you do not feel very well, there is the opposite side of the spiritual coin available to you as well. You may have doubt in yourself yet on the other side of the coin is confidence. You may not feel very pretty or handsome today, but on the other side of the coin is a glowing radiance of inner and outer beauty. Remember you are mastering your ability to ride that incredible stallion that is you. Yes, there are those times when you fall and that ground you hit is darn hard. Yes, you might be bruised, sore and even have a few broken bones or what feels like a concussion, but eventually you get back up stronger and steadier ready to ride on again. Spiritual bypassing is a newish term that speaks to by passing your body’s experience as valid in spiritual development. This link, shares a great article on spiritual bypassing.

What can you do to make it better?

1.  First to know that you have done nothing wrong.  It is not like someone else has it all figured out and you don’t.  Some people are just better at making their pain look prettier on the outside, but we all have struggles that cause us to suffer.
2. Learning to get back up after a hard-hitting life event takes practice.  It is important to lay on the ground and cry until you get your bearings again. Get back up on your own, in your own time, under your own steam.  If you become dependent on others to lift you up, that is what you will get, dependency.  If others jump in to save you, know when to let them and know when to not let them.  Remember your are practicing not perfect. 
3. Your body needs to have opportunities to throw a hellacious fit!  Your body is taking enormous hits of abuse, pain, neglect, stress, anxiety, and depression.  Ask your body how long it needs to have its melt down?  You just might be surprised when it says 10 minutes.  The more you deny your body’s need for that melt down the longer your body will battle to have that melt down.  Make sense?   If your body says 10 years, then that’s a problem.  Let your spirit guide your body into a place of healing 
4.  Ask your body what it needs to feel supported by you.  You will be surprised when your body says things like, please drink more water, please eat 3 meals a day, please let me get 8 hours of sleep, or can you take me for daily walks?  Your body may even ask you to stop getting into abusive relationships or stop letting your teenagers talk to you in an abusive way.  Your body needs to know that your consciousness is going to take care of it. 
5. When your body feels held, loved, safe, protected and cared for by you, it will naturally go into a relaxed trusting state that has great faith in your ability to have your body’s back. 
6. When your body can trust you, then you begin to trust the divine will have your back and the expansion process into the higher wisdom and knowledge frequencies will become much easier for you to integrate.  Overall it is a win for your body, your spirit and everyone around you. 
7. Meditate, meditate and meditate some more! The type of meditation we teach in our programs is more about inviting the flow of earth and cosmic energy through your body. This type of meditation soothes your body and dissolves aches, pains, frustrations, anxieties and more. In addition this type of meditation assist your bodies cells to relax and dissolve resistance to change.
8. Exercise your body! Just like that stallion, that needs to have a good run to get some energy out, your body needs exercise too, to blow off steam. Do not cut corners around this, just do it, even if it is just a mile walk every single day. The more fire you have in your personality the more you will need to exercise to channel that fire in healthy ways.
9. SURRENDER! Let it be okay to not understand anything! It is NOT possible to understand all spiritual concepts and transformations from a human perspective.