Chemotherapy and the Human Energy Field!

I am already changing from the chemotherapy, inside of my being, allowing more room for my soul to inhabit me. For that, I am grateful.

Today is exactly two weeks since having my first infusion of chemotherapy.

There has been a deep untouchable heaviness that I have carried in some ways, unknowingly, inside of my energy field. Chemotherapy has reached deep down inside and asked that heaviness of old energy and karma to the dance. Chemotherapy as a jealous partner, not wanting to share the dance between us with anyone else. Creating a personal experience that only I can go through.

There are so many different types, stages, and virulence of cancers There is quite the science involved in determining the treatment plan of each type. Therefore, I will remain in the energy lane I am in, regarding the energy field of someone going through treatments. You can visit my youtube channel, Intuitive Mind with Nancy Rebecca to watch all the teaching videos regarding the energy field.

All of my clients and students know that my answer to just about everything that ails you is to “GROUND”. Well in this situation, grounding only pulled more of my consciousness down into my body and my soul brightly illuminated just how sick I felt. So in this situation, floating a bit above myself, provided distance from the every present side effects. I am learning to balance by body and spirit in different ways to harmonize with the chemotherapy treatment plan.

I have noticed this when working with clients and students with Trauma. When acute or chronic trauma is triggered, grounding deeper only illuminates the trauma, shedding light on the old pain. Even working with Veterans experiencing PTSD, I would guide them through very slowly to avoid triggering old events. Lightening or deepening the grounding to adjust for the greatest comfort. I am applying this concept to my own health and healing.

My side affects felt so intensified that it was a challenge to see clearly my own energy field. After a few days, I realized that my human aura was pulled deep inside of myself. You know, when you are having a horrible day and you just climb in bed, curl into a tight ball and pull the covers over your head? It is a very protective response, a survival response connected to the root chakra.

Now, imagine, a balloon, deflated, the latex stuck together and no matter how much air you blow into that balloon, it is stuck like glue. Yep, that about sums up my experience. All the layers of my aura, stuck together, contracted, and buried somewhere deep inside of each chakra and no matter how many offers of love or money, it would not expand. Meaning, I even tried getting healing treatments and the more I tried to expand that deep old damp dark heavy energy and chemo chemicals the worse I felt. What did help me the most, was drinking water and walking outside got me through the first week.

Yes, I meditate daily and talk with my ancestors daily. I prayed often to God to help me with my symptoms, and remembered to be grateful even if my gratitude could only encompass one thing. I have loved all the cards received in the mail. Yvonne brings them in almost ceremonially as she opens the envelope with gloves and drops the inside card into my hands. We have a room with plate rails and line them all along the walls. They truly cheer me up. Others have sent me flowers and it is amazing that right about the time, to let go of the old ones, a new batch arrives. Then the Ginger Candies, Pie Books, encouraging bracelets, songs, poems and stories.

My dreams are stronger than they have been in years. All of them, so far, are Tsunami water dreams, where I can see the path clearly, encouraging others not to give up, and helping them to see the way to safety. I am in total peace in each dream. Even last night, another tsunami came, and I felt calm as I gently floated in the turbulence. Then looking in back of me to see my hair, being carried off by the water. I awoke this morning, to a great deal of hair loss and my spirit was letting me know to just keep swimming and allow the currents of life to carry my hair away.

I did have a young man phone and offer to educate me on the benefits of endocannabinoids, a full spectrum plant medicine from the cannabis plant, which literally has been a great side effects minimizer, as well as it has strengthened my aura’s resilience.

I had a visit from a group of golden beings with Lion’s heads. They surrounded my bed and filled my room and for the last week have been there each night. My mother had a visit in her dream from the Goddess Ishtar and was told in the dream at 3 am that it was important to remember “Ishtar”. Then someone posted on Facebook that same day that a Goddess by the name of Ishtar had visited her as well. When my mother shared with me her dream and the links to read about Ishtar, it was mentioned that she rides in on the backs of Lions. I do believe this vision holds greater meaning than my health. My greater since is that there is a new energy infusing the earth at this time, so I suggest you read about Ishtar if you feel called to do so.

I am supported by a large group of healers, whom I consider some of the best in the world. We have a healing treatment table sitting in our living room, so I can receive energy treatments daily if needed. I can usually only take in a healing in small doses. The Ancient Ones are close by, their support is constantly there even on those days the discomfort of my treatments, demand center stage, I can remember, I am not alone.

I have received over 200 messages, either through email, blog comments, facebook and youtube. The first week I was unable to be around electronics since my energy field was pulled inside of my body. I did not have the auric barrier to filter the wifi and electronic signals. As my aura has strengthened, I have been able to enjoy them. Please know that I might not have the bandwidth to acknowledge them, but I am certainly inspired by them.

I am also surrounded by some of the best cooks. Between Yvonne, my friend Donna, and my mother, I have great foods available to me to keep my nutrition up, but again, in small doses. I had a dream of being fed a dark ginger cake. I called my mother who remembered her great grandmother’s sorghum ginger cake and made it that very day and brought it over to me. So truly, I absolutely know that I am blessed with a community that will not let me fall and my gratitude knowing this becomes overwhelming at times, when I think of so many who go through this alone.

Then my dear friend Kim Seer, one of my Sangoma sisters, and a medical intuitive, offers daily support when I need it and is someone that I text daily to update her. She wants to know every symptoms, big and small, and I find it a great outlet to express even the smallest of complaints.

I am now able to do the meditation where I can fluff my aura out. It does not remain fluffed for long, but when it does, I feel so much better. So that is the meditation I will guide you through in this video. Realizing that each of you can benefit greatly by expanding your aura, so I would love to share it with you. I have been able to ground much stronger this week, and that is another energetic meditation that I will share in another video on youtube.

I will plan to resume FB Live on Thursdays in September. I just need a bit more time to adapt to what life brings me.